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Thu, Jul. 27th, 2006, 11:17 am

I heard it FUCKING all... He says, i quote... "People don't find me desirable!" FUCKING... ?WAS LOS MIT SIE? I am bout to blow my FUCKING brains out of my head, take it and pound it on the wall, and call it crack. I find you desirable in so many ways. I am not who I was a long time. I'm sorry I put you through that... I'm sorry! Through everything I was blind.

Through my relationship with Kevin. I really have a respect for love and won't do it with anyone else, Love is not something that you just get delivered to you... You earn it. I was there for him in so many ways but one and that's because I didn't have a car and he had a car and he wanted to stay up my ass twentyfour-seben but 6 times a week! I loved him, and obviously he loved me. But I wouldn't want to be smuthered like that. Take time and rest from eachother and that will make it stronger the next time we see eachother! I mean god.

The first time after a year Roni, You make me miss the closeness that we once had.

Sun, Jul. 23rd, 2006, 11:17 pm
¡Me amor mi amigos!

Ok! On MySpace.com I recieved a reply from my bullitin that I made three days ago and my friend "S" that lives in Germany now,(Originally from here A.K.A Ohio) Had made a point about the waiting process and people need to tend to there own stuff. What if there stuff is tend for, and they're just layin ya over, huh? What do you do about that? Do you ask if there is a problem within the friendship? I must say that people like her are cool people! I love "S" even when we didn't talk for a while, I still loved her. She's aight with me!!!!

Mon, Jun. 12th, 2006, 12:47 am
Rage for love!

OMG! I am so mad. I have nobody here to hold me, To kiss me, to tell me it'll be ok! I want confert too! I want you god damnit! WHY CAN'T YOU SEE MOTHERFUCKER? You are such a powerful man when you hold me, when you kiss me, and when you look at me I CAN MELT! I WANT YOU TO LOVE ME! You just like FUCKING me!



Rage for love!

Sun, Jun. 4th, 2006, 12:51 am
Tunnel of omg!

I'm so emotional. But I knew this was coming and I'll suck it all up because he is my friend. I want to scream so loud but I can't! I want to share my life with him and if this is the only way cool! He's special to me.

Sun, May. 7th, 2006, 01:12 am
I love this boy!

I love this boy, I bet he don't love me. When I'm with him, I just want to look at him all the time. He is so pretty! He is the only one who could ever make me feel this way. He is more then I could dare to dream abaout. I've been with a couple, and they weren't like him, they didn't make love the way he did. He is the one I thought about every fucking day when I was with someone else! I'm sorry for things back then you know, I was a mixed up child back then. I am much to mature and much in need of him so bad! He feels me up with so much shit when I kiss him. he looks at me while we kiss and hug and make love... I don't want to fall in love though... I don't. He is my only weakness. He kiss me and my heart melt. He touch me, my body trembles, when he hugs me my heart skips beats! No one else couldn't make me feel this way! And i don't want to ask him out. I don't... It's just the reason that he might not want to hang out with me, of touch me no more. I need him to touch me and kiss me. I need him, more then ever each night! Just sitting here crying is all that I can do. ENOUGH SAID!




I'm back!

Mon, Apr. 26th, 2004, 08:20 am
Poemestic disturbence!

I don't know where this begins
All this violence is tearing me up from within
Hey people, that are out be proud
People like us goes in history
Don't forget, being gay is not a sin
And at the end we all will win

Sat, Mar. 13th, 2004, 10:43 pm
Union Station/KYC/Justin

I went to union station thursday... It was so awsome! Sorry. That was my second time there and the first time I stayed there for 10 minutes, because Josh, my friend is straight and he didn't like the atmosphere! The second time I was there was when I found out that there was cool dykes and fine ass transgenders!
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KYC is so fucking awsome. There's a lovely little transgender there too. And, he's really good on how he acts and shit... There is this goth person and he was a lil over weight! And he was cute looking! I liked all his peircings, and he looked like he could be a good friend!

I miss ya Hubert!

Sun, Jan. 25th, 2004, 06:03 pm
Poem

Why do you stare at me?
Am I an amusement for you to see?
I'll kill you, roll you in tarp, cast you to sea
Why do you haunt me?
Why do you stalk me?
Just get away or I'll scream
The annoying way you look at me
You make me have nightmares within nightmare within my dreams
If you really want me
Why don't you come to me, ask me
Rence will you go out with me?
So I can reject the answer and walk like a queef!

Fri, Jan. 23rd, 2004, 12:54 pm
Today.. Yesterday!

Today I had to go to the dentist and the put fillings in my mouth. Now my mouth feels like a pussy! Smoking a cigarette isn't easy with a numb mouth! lol...

Yesterday... OMG!

Okay yesterday you smoked a bowl with my Dad and my friend Joe. OK, I felt fine, high and stuff! Then night came and I smoked a bowl with my friend Jenn, Jeanie and a new guy. I didn't really catch his name. I'm sick and I have to take some pills for it! When my Mom ask me to turn the fan on because she couldn't breath because of the nasty smelling weed and I blacked out after I turned the fan on. Man I didn't know that fat people could run like that, my Mom run fast as fuck! Then I got up and looked like a Queerish Queen on a float in a parade and the only thing I done when I got up I waved my hand like a princess and said, "I'm Ok!" That was funny as hell! Now I'm ok!



Love everyone eventhough everyone doesn't love me!
Rence

Mon, Jan. 12th, 2004, 10:50 pm

Ok... Help I need some friends. Anyone out there that'll help me out? Please?

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